my dream..

my life...

my story'*

tis story is wriiten by michelle rachel.*

warnin..tis story had bn cut short'

secondary sch life..
as per normal..
attendin lesson..
lesson seem so peacefull..
as if i forgt sumthin important'

e teacher approach me..
askin me if i had seen anithin..
floatin ard lately..
i jus answered honestly and smiled..
nope!
thn e teacher continue to approach other students
and askin e same question..
she had ask me..
most of the students seem to agree..
seein tat kind of thins..
i was blur at tat time..
as i was mostly blurin ard..
ignorin e surrdin ard me'
so i wasnt reallie sure..
hearin e chinese reigon..
e buddish said tat if euu see tat kind of thins..
dun call out..
nor look at it..
as it wld noe euu can see it and tak euu away..
to me, i dun believe tat'
as i am a christian!

thn lesson started..
i stare out of e window..
and ..
gosh!i reallie can see a read light human figure..
floatin ard..e class coridoor'
wad was i supposed to do..?
i jus looked at tat "thin"
as i came in to out class..
students started to shiver..
and the weird thin is..
i jus stare claimly while it came closer..
it was a guy..a guy ghost..
he looks so familiar..
and his face was jus infront of mind..
i was reallie shock..
lky it was gona kXXX me!
i was lky startin to gt nervous'
thn my teacher, miss rach thrown a marker towards me..
and said.."stp dae-dreamin" and turn over to continue writin on..
ms rach wasnt reallie scoldin me..
she was actually hlpin me..
as i try to turn back..and look wher "he" was..
my frien signal me tat he was standin rite beside me..
and thn "he" sat dwn..
thn tis question came along my mind'
"wait!a min, hu was supposed to b sitin here?"

my head spin convertin a flash back..
pictures flown ard..
"who's tis guy"
and e past came back to me..
-slowly-
lky a normal dae..
he sat beside me..
and as usally i wasnt payin attention..
but drawin..
wanted to borrow a easer..
but my twin frien jus wont lent me..
and -"wad are thy laughin at"- flashin back..and thinkin'
thy are teasin me..
as josh had a likin towards me..
. . . .WAIT A MIN!who is josh..?
he smiled happily to me..
and pass his easer to me..
and said "wifout me, euu wld b in a mess"
and i replied him, "ya rite..
so do euu wan me to marry euu thn.."
he smiled quickly and said.."i do"
thn e whole class laughed..
and so did e teacher
but he ended up bein called to stand outside' hahas..
as a punishment to hv bn such a clown..
after a lesson..
he was let in..
he smiled and sae..
did euu miss me..?i noe euu lky me..
,wif a serious-cum-funni/cute face*
-"wad is my relationship wif him"-
i smile and started blushin..
-"why am i blushin?
wad's happenin?"-
after sch..
i was hangin out wif my grp of frien..
but thy left me shortly..
after sayin, "hey mich josh hv bein waitin for euu almost a yr'
gif him a chance to tok..
a chance to prove himself.."
as josh seem to b followin again!
i turn and said to him..
"dun euu feel tired..
always followin me,
tailin me to hm frm sch thn sch to hm"
he replied.."noO!" wif a cute serious look on his face..
my face turned red..
real red..he laughed..
and held onto my hand and walk me hm'
he send me hm..befor he was abt to leave'
he asked me if i lkyed him e way he lkyed me..
i kept quiet and stander'
whn he was abt to turn and go..
i ran and held him tie..
huggin e back of him..
and said.."dun leave me alone"
and started tearin..
he turn ard..still huggin me'
and smile, i'll nv let euu go
i nolded my head..smiled'
and we had our 1st kiss..
he shouted out loud.."she's mine",
carryin me up high and turnin ard..
i feel so lucky, so bless!
and SUDDENDLY, it started to rain..~
wad a let dwn..
but it wasnt over yet..
we each had a shower..
i took josh's uniform,
wash it and gt it dry..
while it was still dryin'
josh was wif a white plain towel..
hahas..
he looks so cute..
as if he was gona b eaten up by me..
or he was raped by sum1 else..
ahahs..
and emotion was let out..
and i laughed out..
josh walk over..
i stp..look on e floor...
while he sat by my side..
i turn and face him..
while we had our 2nd kiss'
i slowly lied dwn frm e sofa and we started gettin nervous'
still he nv stp kissin me and
slowly touch my waist..
and till my hmm hm..
breast..
i feel so embrasse..
thn he said while kissin me, "dun b afraid"
smiled*
as we continue..
e washin machine sounded..
i push him away'
feelin tat it was such a fast move'
i feel guitly and apologise..
he smiled and pad his hand on my head..
statin tat he will wait for me..
and winker* and said.."BUT dun let me wait to longg ok?"
i feel so touch..had our hugs'
and he wore his uniform and left..
as e rain had stp..long ago'
after he left shortly..
my parents' came back..
while i was in e kitchen fixin sumthin to eat..
my dad and mum,askin hw was my dae
replyin thm well'
and my hp msg tone rang..
i open up and josh msg..
"i almost lose control"
i laughed and went back my room..

e next dae..
as usually josh was rite ther waitin for me..
e onli different is he is no longer tailin me'
he's nw my stead..
-"my stead?. . . ."-
we tok and had a stroll to sch..
everythin was e same..
onli tat e class didnt noe tat we wer a item alrdy'
but -_-" josh jus had to announce it to everybodi..
even ms rach was happi for him..
and warnin him nt to hurt me..or upset me'
hahas..i laughed'
actually it wasnt a bad thin lettin everybodi to noe'
brought me hm..
he came into my hse..
showed him my room..
he was shocked at all my drawins'
and we had tea and cookies, tat my mum baked'
we heard a sound..
it was my mom..
she's back..
she opened e door and headed for e kitchen..
josh suggested to jump..
hw cld he..my room was located at level2
thn i screamed..and realised josh's shoe was in e cabinet'
i hurry went dwn and took e shoe..
while my mum came out and infor me tat..
she wasnt gona cook dinner tonite..
and tat we are gona eat out..
i lied to my mom tat i wasnt feelin well..
and tat she wld brin back tak-away for me..
while she left e hse..
josh was abt to leave e hse..
whn my nanny came over and said tat she heard tat i wasnt feelin well..
so she came over to tak care of me..
-_-" so we are back at point1~
i was in my room wif josh while my nanny was sitin in e hall readin..
afraid tat josh wld go hungry,
i secretly cooked maggie noodles for josh'
and ran straight up'
we tok and laughed'
thn my parents came back hm..
thy took their slp..
while josh and me was left to worry..

to b continued~

sumthin went wrong wif my damn blogg'

arghh..sumthin went wrong wif my damn blogg..
haiz..~
wait till i am free thn i'll correct it..
aniway,
i had a normal dae..
and funni tat i gt to include..
in sch..
it was damn funni..
especially whn lisa and annie was immatin saranya..
which i feel tat she was kind of angry abt it'
nonono..!dun deny!
jus admit it..
as tis is my blogg..
ahhas'
after tat..lesson ended'
walk to north point and rush to e mrt station..
dammit..
hp went low batt'
all i cld to is..
msg msg msg..
thn.. ---_--
annie had to call over..
and my batt went gone case'
wahahs..
i took a turn back to woodlands
and went straight to e payphone..
and tryin to recall..
coz of tat..i cld rmbr annie's no.
hahas..
9xxx1160...
haahs
i thin' whahas
we laughed laughed laughed e whole time..
hahas..

oh ya..
fang didnt attend lesson again..
and as usually mr cham and mdm judie asked me why..
...and gif me tat face..
my god..
jus gif me a brk..
i am here friend..
nt her mother' for cryin out loud!
and she gt my dvd over at her place..
arghh..!hahas
okokaye..tat is ok..
but worst is..
i saw a ver fake-oO person typin to act cool and pretty..
none other thn christina'
actually i bear nor grudge wif her..
neither do i care abt her..
jus dislky e way she is..
no, i shld put it tis way'
i "diSlky" e way she is tryin to act sumone she aint..
she's nt important in my life..
as she's nthin to me..
she means nthin at all..
onli a topic of speakin'
(of diSlky)

todae,
jaime was kind of siCk..
heard tat she was hvin a bad cough..
flu..
fever..
and stomach cramp'
god..
hard on her..
but i wish to correct her on a certain thin,.
tat is..
she always claim she was siCk sick siCk'
i jus wanna sae..
dun claim sumthin, euu do nt wish to hv..
as by acceptin it..euu are receivin'
if euu are sick..
jus pray to god..to hv everythin fix/done for euu'

learn all tis frm church..
friends'
and etc'

on mondae..
mdm judie let us off early..
as e april intak gt a exam yesterdae'
so inorder nt to disture thm..
we gt a early realease..
thinkin ta i cld rest and study laster..
i was damn wrong..
ahahs..
i came hm..
accompanied claudia to buy lunch for her and my mom..
reach hm..
sat dwn on e sofa..
and thn pack e room..
and my room is so neat nw..
ahahs
okoaye..
i'll stp here..
-no endin-

hm..lazin ard'

lazin at hm..
doin nthin..
waitin for sophia and crystal to cum by..
sophia..?
to return me my discs..
crystal?
to pass her e hamster..
and return her, her comics'
...
sian sian sian'
hahas..
later i still gt to study..
tidy up e hse..
haiz..
ahahs..

everlastin love.*

my passion in vcds are back..
and i rmbr, why was i tat crazy abt vcds in e 1st place..
romance..laughter..
e wrd, "feelin!"
i cant realli explain..
but onli me myself cld actually noe wad exact is goin on'
tat feelin..
maks me realise tat i am alive
tat was e main purpose of me buyin vcds'
same goes to my cds.."my music" and comics...
tat pure "real" feelin,
i'm nt sure if u wld understand..
but i reallie hope all e ppl i noe, will noe'
as i wanna share tis special feelin!
=) hard to explain..*

they wasnt aint lesson todae..
it was a holidae for all ite students and teachers'
actually was supposed to go for a swim..
but hu noes..
cancelled..
bored..
but lisa and saranya turn up at my place..
ard 10plus'
lisa went to e suna and for a dip in e pool...
while saranya and me jus started tokin..
ahhas..

...my sisters' friend is currently livin over in ourr hse'
i feel sorry for her..
hearin her story..
but i aint pityin her..
as i dun wish to pity anione..
as i wld b a sign of disrespect'
her story?^
her mum beat her up..
even knowin tat she was prengent'
her mum wld do weird action to her..
and she wld b ver unreasonable at times..
although,
her daughter gt prengent befor even gtin marry..
or wifout her mum's consent..
but which human bein doesnt mak mistaks..
she brk up wif her guy wifout knowin tat she was carryin her baby'
knowin tat she was carryin his flesh and blood..
she told him..and to think he jus act normal..
and didnt even care..."heartless"
so she's currently livin in my sister's room..
and she lent me her comics..
which appears to hv sum..
hm hmm hmm..in ther'
unlky my comics..
although, my comics is m18 and much mor ...XXXXX
but atleast mine is wif a story..
aniway..i dun reallie care
jus reallie hope tat isabel's frien wld b able to overcum everythin'
and same goes to isabel..
as she herself is oso stressin..
she feels bad for her, but oso stress tat she wld gt destracted'
as isabel normal isnt hm..
she wld b cumin hm late'
frm both sch, hmwrks and wrk..
but nw she gt to head straight hm..
inorder to let her frien in e hse..
*her frien kept on msgin her askin wher's her location..
is nt lky isabel mind is jus tat..
she's oso hvin a hard time of her own..
payin her own bills..
her hp bills..sch fees..
allowance..etc etc'
it's nt lky i dun understand her stituation'
^isabel is hvin quite a hard time nw..

jus yestedae,
my greatmother called..
surprise..seriously'
as she dun normally wld call..
unless she wan my dad to fix tis or tat'
i dun feel tat much of hatre to her,
compared to e past..
as she's much beta nw..
in e past?!
she dun care a damn abt us..
onli those daughter-in-law hu gifs birth to a son..
or if we wer males..
but sorry..sad to sae, i am happi tat i was borth to b a ger!
although i always wish to hv a bro..
but..too bad..
oh ya..my cousin, maureen(tay) added mi in friendster..
....guess it was yesterdae ba'
as i hardly go in to friendster,
unless i am damn sickerin bored..
hahas..
which i was yesterdae..
as i almost disture all my friends' online..
ahahs..














michellerachel.*
my passion'*
is a gift frm god..
my everythin is a grt creation by him..
hu luvs me no matter wad..
givin us e best'
he gifs me courage and strength..
and jesus, i am urs..
in christ i nw stand!
"so perfect is ur love!"
-heavenly lord-

my passion for everythin'

jus found out recenlty..
i am interested almost in everythin'
lky swimmin, cyclin, rollerbladin, ice-skatin,
archery, badminton, tennis..
damn alot..
hahas..
aniwayy,
mayb i am quite busy..
unable to daily blog in my blogg..
or mayb i am jus plain lazy..
ahahs..
who noes..

okokaye..
aniway, mani thins happen..
lky jus 2daes ago..
it was meifang's b'dae..
hahas..
share money and bought her a real cool skirt..
ahhas..
chinhui pick e design while annie choose e colour..
ahhas..
mee..?jus incharge of payin..
naa..as i was still rushin over..no time
and oh shit..we didnt hv enuff time to buy e cake..
arghh..!!!
shit shit shit!
mani mani thins happen..
happi and unhappi..
hahas..
i wld rather prefect nt tokin abt e unhappi wans..
and skip to e happi wan..
hmm..
shit..i forgt'
hmm..*thinkin~ ....stressin*
on meifang b'dae..
went over to chinhui's hse
thn over to lot1
took neo-print..*free
hahahs..
tok tok tok,.
chatted..and while in chinhui's place..
annie was lky stressin to win over e bleach ps2 game..
ahahs..
and thy won..
onli 1 of e battle..but thy are pretty gd in playin'
i reallie wanted to write dwn wad happened all tis whole wk..
but it appears tat i hv forgttn abt it..
so wad..
as long as ther is a future..
nthin is a problem!
heard frm claudia tat her frien's gona lent her,
e show..e prince turn into a frog..
oh ya..she sae tat oen of my friend gif her a testino..
wonder hw cld it b..
but hw cares..
hahas
gd nite..

m i c h r a c h*
michelleraChel

jus a few daes agoo..
sumone asked me..
wad do i wanna b whn i grow up..
although, it was a normal questions tat adult ans..
but i answered seriously!
i wanna b who god made me to be..
tat is .."myself"! =)

damn it..
i burn my hand..
nt e whole hand but jus a small corner..
but still..
arghh..
hw cld i b tat careless..
aniway..
sch for lky usually..
stayed for p.e while fang didnt..
oh ya..
i skip lesson..
as lesson started at 9am, which i did attend..
but e teachers' gt a meetin..
so thy let us off at 11plus..
and continue lesson at 1..
pls..
i am alrdy damn tired..
so meet annie..
ate lunch wif her..
includin lisa and saranya..
fang..~didnt cum since mondae'
sick!
so met up wif chinhui..
at chinatown mrt station'
went for a walk..
tok tok tok..
hahas..
lots lots lots..
hlped isabel buy e show..
stairway to heaven'
which i alrdy watched it long time ago..
as chinhui lented me..
real..outdated..man..
i mean, e show is out so long alrdy..
nw thn gt ppl watchin it and commention on it..
as if thy noe it so well..
pls lor..
e show is out damn long ago le lor..
since last yr, 2nd last yr lor..
slow~
okokaye..
let's tok abt todae..
todae..?
hmm..
i was supposed to meet up wif chinhui..
but she gt sumthin up..
so it was cancelled..
hmm..~
nthin else..
jus tat i'm gona lost weight startin frm tml..
as i found out i added afew kg..
arghh..
hands on my hand..puttin and messin up my hair*
wahahs..
i'm gona lost weight for my normal weight..1st!
nt lost weight as in slim..
if it's afew kg..it's too easy for me..
but if i gotta lost weight till i'm damn slim..tat'll tak abt a yr..to finish'
so i'll jus slowly tak my time..
hehee..
enjoy life..

michellerachel..
my wish?
for my family to hv a long blessed gd life..
hv everythin thy wan and nd..
healthy life..no worries, no bother'
and for me,
to jus b mE!=)
simple as tat'

tiring dae!

it's a damn tirin dae'
but still i had alot of fun, yesterdae includin todae..
jus yesterdae...
rite after sch..
*skip archery
went to north point..
bought e comics i wanted..
but shit..!!!book2 out of stock alrdy'
so jus bought e 1st bk..
waited for fang over at yishun control station..
wif lisa..
tokin tokin..
and jus saw annie pass by..
tok..she went hm to gt change and eveythin 1st ..
thn meet up wif me over at my place..
swam..wif annie, lisa, fang, and crystal'
hockyang..didnt cum..
and includin...chinhui and meifang~
swam..in suna..tok tok tok'
thn it started to rain!!!
arghh..*screamin~
sat outside..chit chat..'
gt to noe each other..
(nt mE!thm..)
laugh tok damn ALOT!
haahs..
but funni thin is..
crystal arrive..
went in e pool..'
and e sky went
bA BONG..
hahas..
poor crystal..didnt gt to actually swim at all..
ahhas..
but atleast she gt her b'dae present frm annie and me..
hehee..
went up over to my place after e shower'
annie went up to my place 1st..
hand her my keys..
while crystal and me..went to buy spagettic ingreient..
lisa and fang?
ohh..thy!thy disappear..
haahs..na!
thy wer still in e suna'
cooked..ate..
thy came up..
tok..
blah blah blah....
tired..wanted to slp!
but didnt..
annie stayed over nite..
hehee..
surprise huh..
hahas..claudia gave us e suggestion..
and guess wad..we swam AGAIN tis mornin!
haiz~
damn tired..
ahh..
we went swimmin wif claudia..
tok..
met a "uncle" wif out e slightless brains!
wearin a goggles..and still bangin into me..
hello..if u didnt sae anithin, i'll jus lku forgt it...
but he actually said ...."Oii"
fucl u lar..oii ur bloody ass~
god damn it!
so we 3 wer lky always sayin him..
shoutin out in purposes..
-_-"and hahas
claudia spash water on him,
even though he's alrdy in e water, swimmin'
wahahs
a hour later..
came up..
grahhh..h u n gr y!
so jus nice..my dad cook finish..
ate rich and chicken..
and wow..annie was damn super..
hahas..
i thought i was e onli big eater here..
but looks lky i'm wrong..
hahas..we both are..
aniway..went to plaza..
thn after tat annie went home..
while i continue my burnin of animation(ANIME)
etc etc etc
=P

wad's e meanin of mature?

maybe sumthin lky..
"i dun wanna friend yeuu?"
or
"mayb i dun wanna speak wif yeuu animor?"
actually it's all e same...
dependin on hw yeuu look at it..
ther mayb a different..
tat is e english..
tat's all..
e second sentence sounds mature,
yet e 1st sound so kiddy..
is tat wad yeuu are tryin to object?!
rather thn callin it mature,
we shld call it..
bein lazy..or mayb we cant b bothered..
ppl hu dun bother abt small stuff lky tis is always label..
or called as coOl~ or wow..so gentlemen..or mayb so mAn...
seE..
therr aint ani real differents at all..
lkyy..if yeuu look frm tis different angle..
yeuu mayb thin tat he's coOl..
but frm e other angle..
yeuu wld sae..he's so mean~
nt even carin..or understandin..
blah blah blah~
lky a rectangle shape..
it wld onli look lky e way yeuu wan it to be..
as yeuu are e one..
decidin wher to look frm..
so next time..dun judge thin by your side of e anisn'gle..

although,
i am tellin yeuu tis..
but i often mak tis mistak as well..
haiz~
aniway..all human bein maks mistak,
and ther isn't anithin wrong wif it..



lookin upon a ★流星...
wishin up high..
to jesus above..
tat everythin in my live,
wld b perfect...
no troubles'
no worries..
....hopin for me to stand up strong'