feel so upsett..eyes cldd no longerr openn up..e bestt is half openn..

feeliin so tiiredd todayy..
ii can hardlyy openn myy eye..
feelin so.....sadd'
upsett..
-
myy schh liife..
diid workss..
etc..
studyy..
nthiin speciiall..
duriin mr cham lessonn..
he wantedd us to gett usedd to usin e gps..
so he kiind of gave us a so calledd "jobb"
forr e whole class..
telliin us to followw e mapp..
andd alwayys markk e poiints..
diistancee..
diirectiion..
andd so on..
kiind of diiferentt thnn e normall lessonns
tat studentt wldd hv duriin secondaryy sch..
so iit's lkyy a "freshh" new feeliin..
i wass iin e same groupp as fangg..
whiich iit iisnt surpriisiin at all..
andd shiit...
we repeatedd agaiin..
as we forgt to markk e hm..
thn we startedd walkiin..
e mapp..blah blah'
hahas..
andd shiit..
we forgottenn some stuff agaiin..
ahh..
aniiwayy..
we werr muchh betterr off thn e otherrs..
as we foundd outt soonerr..so we diidnt reallyy tookk tat longg a diistance to repeat agaiin..
but we startedd all overr agaiin..
wiif hockk yangg groupp..
includiin ...soon kiiat, zi jiian andd jiing huii
oh ya..daphne joiinedd me andd fangg..
as forr some reasonn..whiich hahas..diidnt realliie botherr'
wahahs..
seriouslly..
i noee daphne saiid alott..
but i totallyy cldd understandd herr..
justt lkyy e chiina gerr..
namedd "xiiao yii"
evenn fangg clddnt understandd wadd she was tokkiin abt..
hahas..
aniiwayy..
i'm tryiin myy bestt to "understtandd" thmm..
t r y i n . .
hahas..
andd wadd shiit man..hahas..
whn we joiin "forces" wiif hock yangg andd etc..ahahs
e otherrs enjoyedd thmselve..
wadd cleverr andd "HARDWRKIIN" studentts mann..
hahas..
andd thy werr lkyy underr e tree..
ahhs..
afterr whnn we hv done fiinishh e job we werr supposedd to do..
fangg, hockk yang andd myyself..walkedd towardds e canteenn iin a fastt speed..
rushhiin underr coverr..
*starttiin to raiin..
boughtt ourr driinkks..
satt downn..restt..
tokk..haha..
thn e otherrs approachh us..
ii thinkk tat hockk yang iis a greatt guyy..
greatt personalityy ba..ahhas
evenn fangg thoughtt so..wahahs'
hi5 mann'
andd he cann b verr funnyy sumtiimes..
hahas..
aniwayy..
i justt rememberred afew thiings..
- duriin e 1st lessonn..hahas..
chriistiina was lockedd outt of e classroom..
andd e lessonn was kiindd of easyy..free...no stress'hahas
- saranyaa feltedd unwell..
so she wentt hm..
walkedd herr towardds e small gate of ourr schh..
jokedd ardd..tokkiin abt accompanyyiin hm..hahas
- fangg was madde iin charge of gatherriin all e foreiignns' andd makkiin thm feel morr "homee"
- a grp of ite studentts..frm dunno wherr came overr to ourr class..
gavee a tokk..
abt..hmm...wadd wass iit'
iit wass abtt wadd mr andd miiss ite etc etc..
somethiin lkyy a kingg andd queenn..
diistribute afew flyerrs ..
andd surpriisiingly..thy gave one to me..
whiich actuallyy i cant b botherredd andd kiindd of happyy..
iit's normal..forr all humann..to b happyy to b selectedd overr somethiin gd, niice, etc etc'
- etc etc etc..
i feel so upsett..
reasoonn i realliie hv no idea..
mayyb iit's e feeliin i'm hviin nw..
but weiirdd..
nthiin iis upsettiin miie at all..
wadd's wrongg mann..
itchh all overr..
nt tat normal mosqitoe's biite..
but heardd frmm jaiime andd fangg..
iit lookks lkyy ii was biitess byy sum kiind of wormm..
wormm???
no iideaa mann..
wherr ii gt bittenn frmm..
...thinkkiinn..
arghh..
cant b botherredd..
hahas..
but myy legg hurtts so muchh..
gotten swollenn alrdyy..
*mayybb iit aiint fangg's place or hamsterr*
*apologiise..*
gott hm..
riite afterr schh..?
na..riite afterr i wentt overr fangg's place..
thn to e comiics shopp..
namedd wadd tiian de...
made e memberr cardd ii wantedd..
wohoaa..
so happii..
hehehs'
andd fang broughtt her hamsterr alongg..
-_-" guess wadd..
herr hamsterr tat was e fattiiest..
actuallyy urinee on myy comiics..
whiich hahas..
fangg putt iit on myy comiics..
i actuallyy wantedd to warnn herr abt tat..
but weiirdd, riite afterr i thoughtt abt tat..
iit happenn riite iinfrontt of mee..
tiis aiint e 1stt timme..le
aniiwayy..
hahas..ppl wlddnt beliieve tat..
as evenn myyselff cldnnt believe tat eiitherr..
although, iit's quiite afew tiimes..
siince young..hahas
magiic powerrs..?
ahhas..

iin luv..?na...

iin luv..?na..

-

wadd is wrongg wiif ppl..nowadayys?

especiallyy guyys..

andd i'm gona makk tiis clearr..

ii dun lkyy "aniibodii"!

norr do ii admiirerr aniione..

wadd iis happeniin..

askiin suchh questiion..

tokiin abt suchh stuff..

makkiin funn of ppl..

wadd do u gaiin..

otherr thn u earnn a "news" to gossiip'

since ppl hu luv gossipiin shldd actuallyy go to e nearestt communiity club..

andd chiit chatt wiif e auntiies' therr..

hahas..

-

guyss are suchh a weiird creaturee somtiimes..

thinkiin tat gerrs hu are closee to guyys,

makks thm in luv wiif guyss..

wadd rubbiishh..

hahas..

thnn iif i werr too closee wiif myy uncle..ii wldd b hvin a affaiir wiif hiim..

hahas..

or maybb iif i tokk to muchh to myy cousiin, a guyy ..iit wldd makk miie

hiis nanny..hahas'

hahahs..

iif i werr to b friiendlyy wiif myy teacherr..hm hm..

i wldd b seduciin hiim..wahahs'

no..!evenn betterr..

iif i gett to closee wiif myy hamsterr.."pepperr"..

hahas..i wldd b hiis gerr..hahas

-

ppl oftenn miistookk gerrs to b in luv wiif thm..

mayyb thyy are eiitherr thiinkiin too muchh..

ot thyy thiinkk thyy are tat "gdd lookiin"

*vomiit bloodd*

pls..

okk..although

ii aiint gd lookiin..

but ii thinkk i didntt sayy aniithiin wrongg at all..

some guyys are lkyy tiis..

or mayybb all...*thinkkiin*

haahs.

-

1stlyy..iif gerrs luvv u

iit wldd b perfectlyy obviious!okk..

so guyys..stpp ur unnessaryy thinkiin!

wonderriin..wadd iis in ur headd mann..

but mayyb i wldntt wanna noe..

hahas..

2ndlyy..iif u arentt suree iif e gerr lkyys u or nt..

thn dun mayy anii comments..

iif nt u will lost a personn to admiirerr u!

andd so simple...justt askk herr, personallyy!

tat's all..wa la!

lkyy showoffiin..etc etc..

dun pretendd!u guyys are lkyy tiis..

3rdlyy..dun mess wiif gerrs feeliins..

thy aiint gdd to mess wiif..

gerrs are verr verr verr..

...

vengencee womenn..

*iis it hw u spell iit?=p*

~`*end*`~

i hate guyss hu act cool..

hu are rudee..

hu are meann..

hu are selfiish..

hu embrass otherrs..

hu are inconsiderate..

ii hatee everythiin..

*`~`*`~`*

to me..

i just wan a guy hu luvs me..

for e way i am...

...

luv my family..

accept everythin abt me..

...

i dun mind his backgrd..

his past..

...

wad it matter most is nw..

and e future..

...

........

weddnesdayy.. happii andd restless..

iits looks lky it's gona rain soon..

just gt hm frm yishun...

i luv e timetable on tuesday, wednesday and friday..

waahhas..

as...

eitherr e hr wld b verr liitle or we gt to go hm earlyy..

so...

i'm off frm sch at 12pm..

so happii..while sch start at 8.30..haahs

so happi..

hahas..

but still i wld b hm quite late or just nice..hahas'

nw it's lky 5plus..

hehee..

whn to e comics shop named tian de....sumtiin sumthinn..

hahas..

i luv saranya so muchh..!

she found e shop tat once fang includin myself wer tryin to find..

and...

-_-" ashole..

it was so close to e mrt station..

AND fang's hm..

shit man..

haahs..

aniwayy..

i'm verr happii..

as i boughtt e comic i wantedd..

*tat was bandd by s'pore..lame

although, iit's onlii one..

but i luv iit..

hahas..

tml..i'm gona buyy morr..

wahahs..

afterr tat..

saranya, lisa includiin myself went over to fang's place..

lookedd at herr hamsterrs..blah blah..

lisa andd saranya left soon laterr..

ii triied to accompanyy fangg..

whiich we endedd up searchhiin forr e POSB bankk..

hahas..

we walkedd a whole roundd..

andd waiitedd forr "quiite" a longg tiime..

hahhas..

tiimes pass~

wantedd to hurryy cum hm..

to do e laudryy..

but fangg triied to stp mee..

wan miie to accompannyy herr..

whiich i refusedd..

as ii hv bn goiin hm late forr suchh alongg tiime le.

although..myy parentss dun miind..

but ii'm kiind of feeliin verr tiiredd..

restless..

*i'm thiinkiin of buyiin a DVD playerr..

justt hope tat someone wld bless mee one..

=p

sorryy to straiight alrdyy..

hahas..

but tiis iis e wayy ii am..

*thinkiin*

hviin tat kiindd of rashhes..

whiichh i wldd onlii hv iif i bn to a verr diirtyy place

orr iif ii hv touchh aniithiin verr diirtyy..

siince e dayy beforr yesterdayy andd todayy..

e dayy beforr yesterdayy ones wass diisappearriin..

but appeariin "new" wantss..

weiirdd mann..

ii thinkk i noe e reasonn..

maybb iit's bcuz of fangg's hamsterr or etc..

as whnn i was iin herr hse..

ii gt tat feeliin... tat makks me feel lkyy scratchiin'

but aniiwayy...

iit doesntt matterr..

as alittle rashhess wldntt hurtt..

wanna buyy alott of comiics..

but "moneyy" iis e problemm..

e "me" iin e pastt..

whiich nobodii wld everr botherr..

dress wadeverr..

lookks normall..

home clothess..

iit aiint tat ii dun wanna buyy prettyy clothee..

it's justt tat...dun wanna waste moneyy..

neiitherr do ii wanna use myy parentss moneyy..

so tat's y..

i startedd buyiin myy clothess afterr i foundd a job..

madde myy own moneyy..

feel morr secure..

as nobodii wldd makk anii commentss..

on aniithiingg ii boughtt..

orr hv aniithiingg to sayy..

as iit's myy "own" moneyy..

neitherr wldd i botherr abt thm tiis tiime..

i mayy soundd strangee or weiird..

but ii'm justt lkky tiis..

evenn iif iit was myy own saviin..

whiich was frm myy parentts..

ii wldd still feel verr ...

"gulityy"

tuesdayy 28th june 2005..
myy dad drove miie to schh..

as usuallyy..

andd saw lisa andd saranya..

justt lkyy e dayy beforr..

waiitedd forr thm..

andd walkedd togetherr...

towardds e sch..

carteen..

waddeverr waddeverr..

blah blah blah..

sch liife..

almostt e same..

wentt overr to chinhuii hse riite afterr i left e bus stp..

whiich i accompanyy fangg to takk..

we chiit chatted on boardd e bus..

ii gueess, we werr e loudestt..

hahahs..

nw tat i thinkk abtt iit..

i feel quiite embrass..

hahas..

we werr laughiin andd tokiin..

verr loudlyy..

n we almostt tookk a turnn backk to schh..

hahas..

see larr..tokk tokk tokk..

hahahs..

e laughh was startedd antt a

....

"tree"

haahs..

gt a call frmm chiinhui riite afterr i partedd wiif fangg.

she askedd wherr am ii nw..

statiin tat it was alrdyy almostt 5..

andd wherr am ii..

hahas..hurry tookk a traiin..

andd reachh her hse iin 40miins tiime..

hahas..

etc etc etc..

small details..

therr werr laughterr..

smiless..

tokks..

mummbliin...

clown faces..

hahas..

andd so on..

s u n d [ a ] y . . . , fridayy andd saturdayy!

hate e weather to day..
as it's so warm..
although, it seems cool..
-
i didnt attend church service..
overslept..
i remembered claudia calling me up..
but i refused as i was very tired..
and heard my mum mummblin..
sayin i was readin comics rite after i watch vcds..
whn it was alrdy 4am..
haahs..
-
woke up..
rite after thy left..
watch vcds..straight'
haahs..
-
i hv finish watchin all e vcds..
except for 2 comics left..
wanna hurry enjoy now..
as i dun wanna mixed my studies wif interest..
-
i noe tat god wld understand..
and he noe tat i luv him no matter i attend church or nt..
as if ppl hu attend church, thinks thy cld go heaven..
thn thy are wrong..
we go church is nt becuz of jus goin church..
but it's becuz we are worshipin him..
wif all our heart..
and nt jus pretendin..
ther's no such thin as half christian or etc..
nor ther are free thinker..
ppl hu call thmselves free thinker are jus meant tat..
thy are unable to decide which thy can believe..
which is real..
and afriad to mak a decision.
so thy claim thy believe in everythin..
"no such thing!"
-
updates on friday and saturady..
f r i d [ a ] y ....
was off frm sch..
ard 11 plus..
went over to north poitn wif fang..
walked ard..
looked at comics and etc..
yupie..
she's back..
hahahs..
we chit chatted lky those auntie..
haahs..
laughed..etc etc..
and guess wad..
she was late as usually..
hahas..kind of knew tis wld happen..
meet her over at e mrt ..
saw her wif short hair..and rebond hair..
to me..
i think she looks better..
...
rite after tat..meet annie at cck mrt..
went over to her place..
as i wanted to see e dog..
which she was hlpin her sis frienz to tak care..
god..tat dog was damn hyperactive man..
haahs..jackrussian'
chinhui msg...
askin me to go over her hse..
wana ask me some queries..
-
after awhile..
annie oso went over to chinhui's hse..
-_-" heard frm chinhui wanted to go over de..
shit man..
haiz~
aniway..
wad's done is done..
took a walk over at lot1..
which i had nt bn since dunno whn..
*includin plaze..although, it's jus afew step away
arghh..!
my comics is out le..
love monster bk 8..
arghh..no money le..
so shit..
tryin to save money nw..
it was late..
decided to go hm..
watch e vcds starightaway..
almost finish watchin..
but i hv alrdy finish burnin thm..
*ofcourse wif chinhui's permission*
s a t [ u ] r d a y . . .
stayed hm..
woke up quite late..
and watch e vcds again..
wahahas..
*ignore me...
jus crazy over such thins..
haahs..
still kind of tired..
as i slp 5 to 6 am tis mornin..
ahh..
t i r [ e ] d !
-
jus recall tat..
fang msg me..
statin tat she had moved to yishun alrdy..
she was oso quite cueless..
until her mom told her..
hahas..
she's nw tidyin up her nw place..
so lucky of her..
stayin in yishun..
tat's so near..
to "school" lucky her..
hahahs..
i still prefect to stay wher i am nw..
i dun lky stayin in such a place near sch..
for some reasons..
hahas..
alone at hm..again..
hahas..
used to it le..

heardd frm isabel tat herr friienz hu wentt overr to malaysiia..
saiid tat stuff overr at malaysiia are darnn cheapp..
lkyy comicss...
she saiid tat eachh costt ardd 4 plus..
whiich iin sporee cashh..
iit onlii costt 2 plus..
ii askedd herr whetherr iif i was taiiwan comiics..
she sayy she aiint sure..
iif it was taiiwann comiics..
i wld surelyy buyy thm mann..
ate myy lunchh wiif isabel..
"chiickenn riice"
toldd u ii hadd a "fate" wif chiicken..
hahas..
heardd frm jaiime tat we werr supposedd to grpp up into 4 at mostt..
andd she saiid tat ii andd fangg wld hv to fiind a grpp to joiin to..
whiich i was actuallyy kiind of shockedd..
andd angryy..
reasonn...ii dunno'
but i'm sure ii aiint angryy at thm..lisa, jaime and saranya..
mayy..
aniiwayy...
i am glueless abtt wadd grp wld fangg and myyself wld joiin..
we mayyb separatedd forr sure..
as jaiime toldd mee tat mr cham diidnt hv enoughh equipmentt..
*as usuallyy..e schh iis so cheapp!"
...
andd shiit..
ii havenn paiid forr e schh fees yett..
includiin e 25buckss forr e schh notess..
forgtt iit..dun wanna tokk abtt iit..
...
i hate beiin accusedd..
...beiin accusedd on somethiin ii diidnt do..tat feeliin..ehh'
hate beiin hot temperr..
i'll lose myy miind..
hate beiin left out..
beiin lonely.."whiich i am kiind of usedd to iit"
hate beiin fooled..
no wan lkys to b fooledd ..
hate beiin liied to..
puttin myy trust on u..andd u jus throw iit easlierr..!
hate to believe aniione aniimor..
of beiin hurtt agaiin..
hate feeliin tiredd..
to show otherrs myy weakness iis a siign of weakness ..
hate everythiin!

diidnt attendd lessonn..

takiin a restt..at hm'

as ii diidnt feel lkyy attendiin schh..

wasnt feeliin well..

felted verr tiredd...

headache..

whiich myy dad claiim it's becuz of nt enoughh slp..

=p hahas..

thn hadd a tummyy ache..

whiich i thinkk it's becuz

of yesterday's otam..

whiich my mum brought backk hm..

i dun eat otam..

but becuz i was kiind of hungryy..

so ii triied some..

whiichh i thought thy taste lkyy curry..

but weiird curryy..ehh!

thn earlyy in e morniin,

i startedd hviin tummy ache..

atlast..e plaiin was gone'

thank godd!

*lurbb yeuu!*

msgg up jaiime, inforr herr tat i wasnt goiin to schh'

andd thn..ii receiivedd a msgg frm fangg..

she saiid she wldntt b attenddiin schh tiis whole weekk..

ii guess she mustt b verr tiiredd ba..

slpt ardd 1plus..

still watchiin tv....

i realliie hv to kiick tiis habiit of stayyiin awake at niite..

iif nt i'll b a vampiire somedayy..hahas'

"rejectt tat iin jesus name..!"

wadd myy mum lkyy to sayy...

wantedd to slp throughh..

but as u noee..

was wokenn up byy e wrdd, "phonecalls"

AGAIN!

andd lookk at e msg..

chiinhuii msg miie statiin she was boredd..

i repliied her telliin herr i'm at hm..

wasntt feeliin well..

she askedd miie if i wantedd to go onliine..

i guess to chiitchatt wiif herr..

but until nw she aiint iin..

andd receive a msgg to askk miie to restt as i'm siick..

andd sayiin she mayyb cant go onliine..

...

aniiwayy..

goiin backk iis impossiible as..

once i'm wokenn up by otherrs

it's verr hardd forr miie to go backk to slp..

wadd shld ii do nw..

so ii endedd up here..

bloggiin..

~*`michellerachel`*~

m i c h [ r ] a c h

ii am e wayy ii am..

jus shut up!hu are u to tell miie hu ii am..

unless u are godd, whiich u definely aiint!

myy slp...gone!bad temper, bad mood!

i'm so f**kin tired...
due to nt hvin enough slp and aheadache..
y does i always hv to experience such things..
bein awaken up by either phone calls..
or door bell..
wad e ...!

~`* *`~

let me try thinkin back...

mu dad drove my mum and myself to our destination..

it thought i was gona b late..

but thank god..i wasnt'

i arrive jus in time though

lucky me!

~*` `*~

lesson was at class 8204B..

either it wld b warm or darn cold..

chatted wif jaime..

tok tok tok...

~`* *`~

almost slpt..

durin lesson, whn mr cham was "teachin"

if tat's counted as one..

as he seems mor lky mummblin..

*heard tat old age ppl tense to nag alot..

oOps' jaime found out..

hahahs..

~*` `*~
it was ard 1 plus whn i gt hm frm sch..
i finally dwnlded nero burner software includin a additional real player..
borrowed it frm steph..!
i'm so grateful towards steph...!
thankss so much, steph!
lurb yeuu..hahas'
hahahs..

immediately...

i tried thm out..

watch naruto movie..

it was kind of nice...

i thought i wldnt b interested in naruto tat much..

as i asume tat i fits guys mor..

looks lky i'm wrong..

hahas..

i did watch some of e ep.

but i kind of skip through alot..

as i wanted to slp!!!

it was ard 5plus whn i notice steph was online..

and i'm still nt "aslp" yet!

asked her if i cld burn e nero, naruto and e realplayer..

she replied "yes" generously..

i decided to go offline..

tak a bathe..

and a nap

but as i hv stated above..

i was "awaken" by a phone call..

which belongs to my "dearest" mr!

terence chng!

my dad..

he called afew times to e hse line..

which i purposely ignore..

thn he called over to my hp..

since he called my phone

so i thought i must b serious or important..

and he said..

"i'll cum hm late.."

which in my mind i was thinkin..

"so wadd..it's nt lky e 1st time rite.."

thn he continue on sayin..

"as i hv bked a tennis court and it's 8 to 10.."

and which it's almost time...

wantin me to go over..

to stand by for him

shit man..

jus whn i gt to bed for less thn a hr..

he had to interupt my slp..

which i desperately nds it..

as i haven had a gd nite slp since e holidays...

*thinkin..

no!much mor futher!

ok..let's get back to e topic..

i went dwn..

waited till i almost go bozo!(means crazy!)

waited...

called up my dad..

answerin him wher is he..

on e way...on e way...on e way!

always tis same old sentence..

i started feelin ver hot temper...

which aint surprising'

"wher are YOU"

he replied near to westcoast..

which seriously wasnt so call "on e way"

as e meanin of tat was "NEAR"

and he wasnt near at all..

sat ther..

lky a fool..

e security guard asked me wad i wanna do..

i gave him a ver "shut up" tat kind of face..

thn he jus smiled..

and i walked off..as if i care abt him

thn it was time..

i walked up..lookin into court2

ther was still ppl playin in ther..

so i jus tried waitin for my dad..

which i cldnt as i wasnt in a gd mood at all..

called him afew times..

he replied me..tat he's frien was reachin..

which i waited till 5 to 10mins..

and he aint here yet..

and another security guard hu seems off duty..

was stupid enough to mess wif me durin tis time..

tried tokin to me..

which i dun give a darn..

he tried sayin..which he finally did,

"wad time will your frienz will b here"

i gave him a ver ver ver f**kin look..

and replied..

"I"M NT SURE!!!"

and

"WAD'S E MATTER?!"

which i thought he was tryin to "act cool"!

pls..stp e act man..u aint handsum at all..

so jus f**k off!

even so he had no rite to ask me

as 1stly, he was off duty..

and i am a resident here..

and he's jus a wrker..!!!

~*``*~

after dealin wif tat frenkin guard..

i began to daze..

looked ard..

same a guy holdin a tennis racket..

so i figure he shld b e guy my dad was tokin abt..

hahas..

actually it was ver funni..

as he kind of fast walk-cum-run

towards me..

i looked at him..

he looked at me..

both of us thinkin, whether is he/she e one..

as if it's a movie..love movie!

*sorry!tis aint a romances show!

it's reality..*

he asked if i was terence's daughter..

jus give him tat kind of smile..

and replied him..

"yupiie.."

and infor him tat my dad bked court2..and pointed e way to him..

as he walk up..

so did i..but nt in his direction.

but back hm..

while walkin hm..

i tried to recall his face..

and he was kind of "cute"

hahas..quite handsum too!

haahs..

aniway, jus hurry walk hm..

sat on e sofa..

watch tv..

waitin for charmed to start..

arghh!

after tat..watch channel u..

thn back to tis position..

havin my face locked in tis position and stickin towards e com..

so here i am..

hahas..

wanna noe wad i ate for dinner..

noodles.."maggie noodles" again!

i cant b bothered abt wad i eat..wad it's taste

as long as i wont gt hungry..

so all i had to do is swallow e pathetic noodles..

ehh! *disgus man!"

foundd iit..nero burnerr!andd fangg's backk!

justt gott hm frm schh..
hahahs'
i receivedd newws frm fangg yesterdayy nite...
hm..it shld b tiis morniin ba..
tat she was backk in s'pore..
as she gave miie a call..
statiin shhe was in e aiirportt..
haahas..
atlastt, myy mummbliin calledd herr forth..
hahahs..as iif!
i'm still kiind of upsett overr myy burnerr unable to burnn...
wiifoutt e sickeriin softwaree..
arghh..
i askedd ardd forr suchh alot timee..
andd surprisiinglyy...
justt beforr miiee..
stephh, jaiime, andd saranyaa have..
arghh!i askedd everybodii but nt thmm..shiit!
i'm lkyy so......nthiin to sayy'
i gett to noe whnn we werr tokiin whiile eattinn ourr lunchh...
ii was so ....wad's tat wrd...(forrgt iit)
anotherr easilerr wayy iis..
i frenkk outt..
nthiin to sayy...
ii justt gave thmm a happyy whille pathetiic look.hahas'
searchiin forr suchh alongg tiime..!
aniiwayy..atlastt i foundd iit..
stephh gonaa lentt miie herr burnerr softwaree..wahahs
hehehs..
so happyy!
Aaa...shiit!ernestt iis lkyy still hlpiin miie to dwnld...
=p
aniiwayy..ii dun thiinkk sendd overr...
throughtt msnn..
iif can..thnn sendd overr lorr..
hahas...
duriin lessonss..
as usuallyy, iit was verr noiisy as everr..
we studiied...playedd...lots lotts'
ii was lky kiind of stuff...
as duriin tea breakk...
i ate 7 chiickenn nuggetss!
thn duriin lunch breakk ii still ate caii fann..
miixedd foodd..
ii actuallyy wanna buyy vegett andd meatt onlii..
lettiin it b plaiin..
but e uncle keptt on introduciin tiis and tat..
so haii ya..
i realliie dunno hw to refusee e uncle andd auntiie sometiimes..
so whiile stephh andd jaime waiitedd forr miie to orderr fiinishh..
we walkked towardds e seat..
i toldd jaiime/stephh tat i wldd giive thm sum of myy foodd..
butt whnn we satt dwnn..
ii saww theiir platee..
"same" chiickenn as miie..
ahh!
so no choiice juss gavee stephh half of e egg...
haahhas
therr was quiite alott of leftoverrs riice..
as forr e maiin diisces..
i triied all myy bestt to stuuff iit in my myy..
whnn i was finiish..
myy tummy startted to achee..
ii controlledd..
wanntedd to buyy a driink...thiinkiin it wld hlp..
boughtt lemon barleyy..startedd regrettin'
pourr some overr to steph's...hahas
thn drankk..
stomachh evenn morr hurtt..
wentt upp to e class...
walkedd..fellt muchh morr betterr..
3 o'clockk....
finally...almost doze off..!
lesson overr..haahs
tookk abuss wiif jaiime..
while liisa andd saranyya walkedd..
blah blah blah'
backk hm..
wentt to isabel's room..
can still feel e aiir-con..
wahhas..
so enjoyiin it nw man..ahahs'

wadd ii thinkk dat some miistakess dat guys usuallyy makk..!

some miistakess dat guys usuallyy makk..!

(nott all guyys are lkyy tiis..)

iif guyys realliie diid somethiin lkyy tiis...

forgtt abtt hiim..

fiind someone betterr..

dun tel miie..u cant..

orr hee's e one..

iif he reallie iis..he wldd treatt u, e wayy he treatted u nw!

gerrs out therr, u deserve someone betterr..

stp demotedd urself..

claimin u aint gd enough..etcetc

guyys shld luv u e wayy u are..

andd nt tat gerr behiind tat maskk!

tiis is onlii statiin some guys..!pls b informedd!

If u treatt a guyy nicelyy, he wld probably sayy tat u are "in lovee" wiff him..
pls grow upp..makkin suchh sillyy guesses...andd excuses!
guyys hu lkyy gerr oftenn uses tiis methodd to gets e gerrs attentiion!
andd iif u dunn, he'll say tat u are proudd..
eiither he lkys u..orr guyys thinkiin...
orr iif u dress nicelyy, he will sayy u are trying to seduce hiim...or a fliirt..fliirtiin wiif anotherr mann..
whiich gerr dun wanna dress nicelyy..misterr!eiitherr forr herrself or forr u guyss..
iif u dunn, he thiinkks u are outdatedd, simple wayy of sayiin demotedd to a "village gerr"...

whnn u arguee orr quarrel wiff hiim, he claiims u are "stubborrn"
andd iif u keepp quiiet, he wldd thiinkk u are braiinless....
wadd riighht doess those guyys deserve to call us gerrs "braiinless"!
andd iif u are smartter thn hiim, he'll be verr embrassedd..
as guyys are all stubbornn andd wan face..
orr iif he's smarterr thn u, thnn he'll tryy wayys to showoff..t
hiinkiin tat he's suchh a biigg deal..
whnn u aiint in luv wiif hiim, he wldd wan to hv u andd tryy to possess uu..
as guyys wld thinkk tat as a challege!
orr whnn u hv fallenn forr hiim, he wldntt b interestedd iin u..
thiinkiin tat he deserve sumone betterr...
If u dunn makk love wiif hiim., he wldd thinkks u dunn luvv hiim..
"guyys thinkk tat wayy"
simple minded..wadd cann ii sayy...
but hviin sexual intercourse wiif hiim...wldd makk u "cheapp" iin hiis miind'
easilyy takenn
iif u are troubledd andd u toldd hiim, he wld thinkk u as a troublesum frenk..
guyss...weiird mindd..b honestt wiif u, cant b botheredd'
andd iif u dun... means u dun trustt hiim...
tat's wadd sum guyss thinkks...dun botherr explainiin'
e mor u wanna explaiin...e morr he feel tat u own hiim...
hindiin somethiin frm hiim
iif u quarrelledd wiif hiim...u'll becum hiis naggy...
he'll feel tat u are suchh a nag..
andd iif he shoutt at u.. "meanns he "caress" forr u...
wadd crapp..
guyys hu broke theiir promises are calledd..."i'mm forcedd to"
gerrs hu breakk theiir promiises are namedd..."betrayerr"
gerrs hu smoke are namedd "badd"
guyys hu smoke are calledd cool..gentlemen...
iif u hv a better career thnn hiim...he'll feel useless, ventiin hiis angerr on u(gerrs)
iif he diid sumthiin better thn u..he'll sayy he gt e talentss..*vomiit*
andd if she diid better thn hiim..he'll claiim, it's jus luckk'
guys hurttiin gerrs are calledd, ii dun meann iit...it was a accidennt..orr worstt, u are beiin sensitivee,..
iif it werr e opposiite wayy...e gerr wld b calledd cruel...

myy mondayy...whiich sch hadd reopenedd..

justt came outt frmm e showerr..
feel muchh morr refreshh..
tryiin to recall wadd hadd happenedd iin todayy..

cumiin to schh, was alrdyy "heartless" to miie..
makkiin miie wakee upp...darnn earlyy..
as ii wasntt usedd to iit alrdy...
hahas..
na...nt tat seriious!
makkiin miie cum to schh all alone...
all stupiid fangg's fault...
enjoyy herr one morr wkk holiidayy..
whiich i guess..
mustt b she, herrself declaree iit..
hahahs'
jus jokiin...
aiint tat petty...
but e REAL thiin...
ii realliie was unhappyy was beiin made e "treasurerr"!
wadd e..
wadd iit hadd to do wiif miie aniwayy..
iif onlii fangg was here...
thn someonee wldd hv supportted miie..
iinsiidee of all 3 of thmm!
askked e mdm judiie to makk miie e treasurerr..!!!
arghhh!
and thosee 3 personn are..
none otherr thn,
"jamiie"
"liisa"
andd
"saranyaa"
ahh!*screamiin in myy heart...!*
ii dunn lkyy beiin tiied dwnn byy somethiin..
ii wanna hv myy freedomm..
ii diislkyy beiin stuff tat ppl orderrs miie ardd..
whnn i'm unwilliingly!
ppl mayy thinkk nthiin's therr..
no biig deall..
but to miie therr iis..
i ratherr...someone becumm e treasurerr andd i'll hlp herr..
ratherr thn hv tiis status...!
aniiway...
i dun intendd to do tiis...
waiit until awhile laterr..
i'll tryy to tell e teacherr agaiin..
tat ii dun wan to..
andd ii aiint fiit to be one..
-_-" iif she doesntt liisten..
thn ii wldd hv to pretendd..
hahahs' tat ii wanna catchh upp wiif myy studiies..
hahas..bullshiit!
as iif i cant concerntrate on myy studiies..!
hehehs....

ourr class leftt ardd 3 plus..
actuallyy, we werr supposedd to stayy till 4 plus..
iif therr wasnt anii pe lessonn..
but becuz..we triied telliin mr chamm to let us off..
as therr was nthiin we cld do..
no bks..
hw to learnn..
andd all of us werr lky talkiin or playiin..
nt liisteniin to waddeverr he was tokiin abt..
*class 1B left 1st..
followedd byy class 1C..*
we are alwayys e lastt class man..
evenn iin class positiion..
suchh ashame man..!
iit was kiind of weiird...
as iit soundd so quiiet todayy..
wiifout fangg therr..!
iif aniione of us aiint therr..
iit wld b weiird too..iin aniiwayys!
reachh hm ardd 4 plus..
came onliine..
chiitchattedd..
playedd com gamees..

myy boughtt "chiickenn riice" forr miie..
whyy do ii hv a feeliin tat i hv "chiickenn fate"
haahas'
as last nite...ate chiicken forr diinnerr..
andd forr todayy...
in schh, lunchh breakk...ate chickenn riice(wiif 2 kiind of chiickenn)
andd nw..diinnerr iis chiickenn agaiin..
i betterr avoiid chiickenn lately..
hahas

myy sundayy...was spent lky tiis.

my dad cooked dinner..

and so i hv jus eaten my dinner..
feel jus rite..
hahahs..
neither to light nor to hungry..
jus rite..!

still feel so tired after a hr and a half nap..
ahh!
tml got to go to sch alrdy..
kind of nt used to it..
but wad to do..
haiz~
jus got to b used to it..
tat's all..!

finally, i attend church service..
(1st service...)
it had bn so long since i attend anii..
after e service..
i thought i cld hurry hm..
get some slp..
so claudia and myself..
hurry buy packeted food..
etc etc..
but...
later claudia intend to meet juiana..
my dad drove her ther..
thn later my dad suggest goin over to lao yi's hse..
ahhh!
my slp..!
seriously,
had nt bn ther for so long..
since lao ma, my great grandmother passed away...
drove all e way to westcoast ther..
one of e bungalow..
walked in...secretly'
as e door wasnt locked..
-_-" seem lky my dad and i was lky stealin sumthin..
ahahhas..
scared my grandmother..
she frenkz out..
hhahs
=p
hlped her clean some stuff..
while my DAD lie on e chair and watch scv..
*feel lky stranglerin him..
hlp ard..
my grandmother gave me 20bucks..
and another for claudia..
mama...my grandmother cooked some food for us to brin hm..
saw my greatgrand auntie..her daughter and her son..
-_-" her son(youngest)..
pad my back..
wad's e deal?
hahas..he jus wake up..
e funniest is..
e eldest son called level one..
asked for his swimmin trunks..
hahas..
thinkin tat i was e "new" maid..
haahs..hurry scream for my grandmother..
i guess my uncle(eldest) de must b ver embrassed nw..hahas
hlp ard..
asked my dad whn wer we leavin..
my dad cld tell tat i was ver tired..
so he drove us hm..
straight away i cooked rice..
thn use e com..
for quite some time..
took a bthe and slept..
so here i am..
woke up again..
ate..and use e com..
tat's all..

myy saturdayy...wastedd lky tiis'

it's a saturday...

yet, i'm still so restless...

my nose aint tat blocked as befor...

my forhead aint tat hot either..

and aint feelin tat sleepy..

but still a little..hehehs'

maybe it's becuz i slpt kind of late last nite..

ard 3 plus..turnin 4...

and i was waken up by annie's phone call..

my dad shouted for my name..

hurry woke up..and rush to e phone'

.....

seriously, i was too tired to actually remember nor listen wad she said..

hahahs'

as i was half aslp..

so after i hang up e phone wif her..

can changed..

time: 8.45am

and waited...

hahahs..

and realised i totally wasnt listenin to wad annie said earlier'

so i dialed her no. called her..

ahh!she's lky alrdy at e pool(m level)

slowly walked dwn..

as cant see properly..

as i lost my left side of my contact lense..

arghhh!

shit!it aint cheap...

aniway, forgt it..

time: 9.13am

swam wif annie includin her sister..

and wher did e hell did crystal is?

told her 10plus..

but even so..it was alrdy pass 10 le..

i swam for an hr and whn up..

took a shower...

and whn back hm..

watch tv...but still feelin ver tired

*left annie and her sis ther..

thy went to suaina...and back to e pool...

i'm quite thankful to those friends hu helped me, gettin back all those stuff i lost!

lky my friends contact...

smileyd...

and etc...

lurbb thm so muchh...

meifang...

yokeleng...

sihui...

and lots mor..

oh ya...

i wont forgt tat "person" hu kept on callin...

and wont give up..

i cldnt b my frienz as if it was thm..

thy wld hv called my hp..

and if it was my parents..

thy wld call my hp directly if i didnt answer e (hse)phone..

ahhh!

jus whn i fall aslp..

tat hu ever called...woke up

wlkin to e phone..

wantin to pick it up..

-_-" but wait until i pick it up..

e BLOODY caller hang up..

so i decided to let it b..

so it rang rang rang for quite alot of times..

and so for e last call..

i was so angry tat i decided to answer it n give e person a piece of my MIND!!!

rush over to e phone..

n IT GO BLANK!

shit man..

after tat..

i was too tired to slp..

on e tv..

watch wadever was on tv..

until nw..

wad e f**k!

tat person..beta ever let me noe hu ever u are..

haiz~

i'm all alone again..

kind of used to it....

lookin at e time..

thy wld either cum hm tis time or past midnite..

lookin out e window..

e sky start to cry...

n i saw a light of thunder..

looks lky its gona rain'

thinkin tat monday, is e startin of a new term..

hv to go back to sch..

i hate to say it..

but i hate tis feelin..

although, i promise myself i will study harder tis time..

still...

luv e feelin tat i aint locked to those stuff..

jus hope i wld hurry learn all those stuff.........................

remember thm..

and start to lky thm..

hope ba..

~ ` * m i c h [ r ] a c h * ` ~

a ger...

hu is searchin for somethin she, herself dun ever noe..

it may b anithin..

but hu cares...

god will lead e way...

=)

accountt ganna heckk..

todayy iis e lastt dayy of e holidayys..
*breathiin in a deep breath...lettiin it outt...*
ii thoughtt nothiin wld go wrongg...
neverr diid i expectt tat therr wld b sumonee hu wld abusee myy emaiil
i dun noe whiich personn diid it...
iif ii werr myy friienz...ii wld b verr diisappoiintedd...
nw ii hv no wayys to siign iin to myy maiil...
norr siign iin throughh msnn..
so friienz..
pls kiindly add miie iin msnn agaiin..
at micrachel@gmail.com
thks euu so muchh..
lurb euu!
haahhas'
losiin a accountt aiint tat important norr hurttiin..
wadd hurtts miie e mostt iis tat person heckiin into myy account..
iit wld b eiitherr myy closestt friienz hu ii trustt..or a nobodii hu heckk iin'
becuzz of tiis..
ii gt to changee all myy passwrds...
weeklly..troublesumm..
...
aniiwayy..
ii jus gt backk frm plaza..
returniin e vcds tat ii borrowedd..
ii meantt rent..hahahs'
hahhas...dun hv to finedd forr late returniin..
wow~
luckyy miie...
=p
wentt to anniie's place andd burnn all at a dayy..
wentt overr to jurongg poiint..
anniie boughtt herr inuyasha volume 11 andd 12..
happii herr..
hahahs'
walkedd ard..
ii atee myy lunch-cum-diinerr..hahahs
curryy chiickenn..
so FULL...
wow..~
walkedd ard..
exploriin forr perfume..
saw a adidas perfume..
wanna buyy..
hahas..
etc etc etc..

i had my treatment...ahhhh!so happy!=p

i finally treatment my hair..
and i'm quite satistifed with it..
my fizzy hair on e tip on my hair is much more better thn before..
it's no longer fizzy...like curve
happy....
i went there to have my treatment with baozhn..
she also had her hair done..
both treatment and a haircut!
ahh!*feeling quite tired!*
i met baozhn over at bukit panjang lrt station..
which was onli afew steps away'
it was like 10am plus..
feeling restless due to not having enough sleep..
slept late last night..
and especially whn e weather was such a nice cooling rain!!!
arghh!i could be at home..
enjoying sleeping with such cool weather.
hahahs'
baozhn thought about tat too.."same!"
hahahs..
we took the train approaching e station and reach choa chu kang eventually'
we get off the station as baozhn needed to draw money to return a ex-regent night..
a counsel..just like baozhn'
return him about 20bucks..
thn return back to e station..transfer to mrt..
n took e direct train to tanjong pagar..
-_-" it was still raining..god..
thank god..baozhn brought a umbrella..
hurry took shelter..
found kimarie..
had our hair wash..
treatment..
the girl who had to dry my hair.. was ver funny
as she couldnt get it right..
she could make my hair remain straight..
i laughed..as my hair will automaticly go straight after it's dry
but lazy to explain..hahas..so i jus kept quiet' hahahs
i finish 1st..while baozhn is still on her cutting..
felt tired..and hungry
hahahs'
so did baozhn..
whn we left the salon..
it was like already touching 2...
walked to the nearest food court...
took our seat..brought our food...blah blah blah'
hahahs'
small details...not needed!
oh...i remembered, e student ther..learning about hairstyling was very friendly..
hahahs'
we talk alot..
laughed alot..hahhas..
thinkin of visiting chinhui at outram..
so we did..we walked around exploring..
blah blah blah...
check hw much the mp3 was...
as baozhn is thinkin of buying one..
walked in to OG..
look around..
and hahahs' baozhn ended up buying a foreverfriends shirt..
which i thought was ok...
smell the waffle...haahs'
nice...so finally i bought one...
but regretted in the end..
as i felt so full..
hahahs'
i bought my silky pro conditioner...
=p borrowed from baozhn money..
as i didnt brought enough..
we did visit chinhui..
talk to her..etc etc'
*angry!hahahs..joking*
as when i was there..
chinhui told me that the vcd tat i wanted is out..
finish...it's 55bucks..
which obviously i didnt brought enough amount..
and even if i did...
i would be wasting my money on video cds again..
haiz~
not sure..*thinking*
arghh..but i WANT!
but i dont have anymore money..
i'm still trying to save money on fang's birthday present..
which i dont know what to buy yet..
arghhh!i'm totally stress!
especially abt e word "money!"
MONEY MONEY MONEY!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
i got a headache from not being used to taking bus in such a long distance..and now adding another'
faint!*