myy true feeliin' e real miie..insearchh forr miie..

arghh..
i'm so happy..
i finally gona joiin archeryy..
atlastt..
as i thoughtt through alotts of stuff todayy..
lkyy wadd i wan..wadd i nd..
andd nt alwayys doiin somthiin forr someone else..
i wanna b myself and do iit forr myself for a change..
so i hv decided to joiin archeryy!
ya ya ya..
so happy..
andd i foundd someone to joiin iit wiif miie..
she's crystall..
luv her so muchh..
hahas..
i'm alwayys nt able to joiin as i wantedd to spendd
sometiimes wiif myy sec schh friiends'
afriiad to lostt thm..
afriiad of losttin tiis friiendshiip..
afriiad of everythiin..
but i thoughtt throughh.
andd heyy man..
thy wldntt b lkyy tiis..
iif thy diid..thy wlddnt b myy close friiends'
riite ya..haahs'
wadd was ii thinkkiin..
aahahs..
felt muchh morr "miie"
dayy by dayy..i'm searchiin forr tat "me"..
alwayys takiin alook out..
andd little byy liittle..i comsume some..=)
...
i dun wanna b tiis miie..
a ger hu's alwayys hviin stress..
beiin sacartiic..
alwayys feeliin hot andd worriies iinside..
pretendiin to b alriite..
or even nt worryiin abt aniithiin..
nt botheriin abt aniithinn..
pretendiin nt to noe..
nt cariin abt myy surrounddiin..
ignoriin e happiiness..
lettiin iit flyy awayy..
lostiin iit..
...
p/s..justt luvv e musiic..
iit hlps to calm miie dwn..
whn i'm angryy or fustratedd overr somethiin'
andd even whn i'm tiiredd or sleepyy..
iit awakees miie..filliin miie wiif energyy makiin miie feel enerytiic'