wednesdayy...myy schh liife'

feeliin verr uneasyy latelyy..

andd tiredd..

i dun lkyy tiis feeliin..

makiin miie feel so...

nott lkyy myyselff..

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but hu am ii..

wadd am ii..

wadd iis myy true self..

am ii pretenddiin to b someone i'm nt..

orr iis tiis e real miie..

lotts of questiions to askk..

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i hv tat kiindd of feeliin agaiin..

lkyy iit aiint realistiic..

lkyy iit isntt real..

justt lkyy whnn i was youngg..

i alwayss thoughtt tat iis tat realiie real..

etc etc..

weiird huhh..

i stp haviin e feeliin since sec schh..

but yy iis iit backk..

y wldntt iit leave alrdyy..

iit's so annoyiin..

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justt came backk frm schh..

walkk ardd overr at northh poiint..

riight after schh..

lookiin forr e dvd recordiin..

frm haverr nomann..

thy hadd a advertiisementt..

sayiin tat iit costt onlii forr 300plus..

saw iit..

$288...

but...i hadd usedd up all my moneyy..

all myy payy tat i usedd to hv..

andd myy remaiinin moneyy to re-rebond myy haiir

iis still wiff isabel andd claudiia..

arghh..

nd moneyy...

desperatelyy..!!!

i saw a normal dvd playerr justt forr 80plus..

haiiz..

hope andd wiish tat myy grandmontherr wld lentt miie..

e moneyy..

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backk to schh liife..

came to schh byy my dad's carr..

he drove miie overr..

whiile i was too tiiredd to actuallyy botherr to tokk to hiim..

i justt sleptt throughh all e wayy to schh..

was half aslp whn i walkedd to e canteen..

lookiin ardd forr e restt..

saranya, lisa, jaiime andd fangg..

theyy werr at e toliett..

whiile we met fangg togetherr wiif jiian weii..

hahas..

siince whnn werr we close towardss hiim..

hmm..i guess iit shld b ardd tiis weekk ba..

hahas..

justt hope..tiis tiime therr wldntt b anii miisunderstandiin..

hopee so ba..*prayiin*

aniiwayy..

kiind of common le..

alwayys gott gossiip abt wadd hu everr lkyy hu..

etc etc etc..

lamee..

hmm..to wadd ii thinkk..

jiian weii iis verr verr funnyy..

he's alwayys tokiin stuff whiichh fangg andd myselff wldd nv understandd..

hahas..

lkyy tiis morniin..

saw hiim walkiin wiif fangg..

all 4 of us gerrs, wavedd overr

calliin herr..

andd ii justt turnn myy attentiion yo hiimm..

as guess wadd..

he was fooliiin ardd..

hahas..

tryyiin to pretnedd fangg's herr steadd..

puttiin hiis handds overr herr shoulderr..hahs

as usuallyy, fangg was to slow to actuallyy notiice..

hahas..

laughedd..

andd fangg was startiin to blurr..

hahas..

duriin lessonn..

borrowedd hiis mp3 playerr..

-_-" hearr half wayy..

low batt...

whah...

wadd luckk..

ohh ya..

e mostt funnii partt iis fangg andd myyself was figuriin who to "on"

e mp3 playerr..hahas

and we whiisperredd to ourself..

shh..dun tell ppl we dunno hw to on..

hahas..andd triied cliickiin aniithiin we cldd..

andd we failedd..andd i justt askk jiian weii..

hw to on..

he was lkyy eiitherr verr shockedd or blurr..

hahas..

as he kinnd of openn hiis mouth..

andd lkyy as iif tiime stpedd..

thn he saiid..cliickiin on e button forr a longerr tiime..

wahahs..

so embrass..

hahas..

afterr awhiile..he sat overr

we tokk..

laughedd..

andd i feltedd tat he was kiind of lkyy..

daphne..

hahas..

tokiin in a funnii andd sloww wayy..

haahs..

class are muchh betterr thn wadd i thoughtt and was betterr thn beforr..

so ii can sayy i'm doiin muchh betterr thn beforr..

hehes..

lurbb myy friiendss iin tiis schh..

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